Just Forget It

Lonely again.

I don't know why this keeps happening. I keep getting left behind, awake, alone.

I just want to forget everything. I want to forget the friends I never actually had, the family that was never really there for me. You might've noticed that this is consistent for me. Almost every night, I'm alone and miserable. I can't sleep. I'm exhausted, and I'm dying for that moment's reprieve, that split-second of complete and total loss of conscious thought, but I can't have it.

I don't know what to do. I'm lost, and I'm confused... I just don't know what to do. I know what I WANT to do. I want to just get fucking smashed and smoke till my lungs curl up and wither like burning paper. Then I can finally fucking go to sleep and never have to put up with the waking world again.

But I know it's wrong. It just doesn't feel right... I have access to so many methods of self-destruction, I'm just not capable. Something keeps tugging me back from the abyss, and it pisses me off.



Now I'm just sad... I'm so lonely...

Editing now...

I kinda feel like laughing. I'm posting about how depressed I am on a website built on the basis of Pokemon... I'm not the brightest crayon in the box, am I...?

Thanks for reading... Once again, if you got this far, I salute you. A lesser (wo)man would have gave up one sentence in...

Editing for the new day.

Well, I woke up, and surprisingly, I don't feel any better. I feel just as miserable as I did when I went to sleep (finally). That's a new one... Talk about a kick in the nuts from your psyche.

You should start taking sleeping pills.

Don't take too many, or that'll be your last catnap.

Also, Fap. It makes EVERYTHING better.

how old are you? I recommend getting the fuck out of your current situation A.S.A.P. if its making you this unhappy.

Suen wrote:how old are you? I recommend getting the fuck out of your current situation A.S.A.P. if its making you this unhappy.

He's 18.

Nearly 19.

Sagechild wrote:

Suen wrote:how old are you? I recommend getting the fuck out of your current situation A.S.A.P. if its making you this unhappy.

He's 18.

Nearly 19.

Also, currently unemployed, without a vehicle to call my own (dad still clings to the Blazer, despite that I'm the only one who drives it and that it was planned that I'd get it when I got my license), and just about to enroll in college.

Really, I just have no other place to go right now. It's not exactly like I can afford to get my own place or anything right now, but I'm working on it.

Btw, I'm feeling okay right now. I'm at my friend's house, and I'm updating from his laptop. It's like, three in the morning or something, and he has to be up in about three hours to go to school, but he just refuses to sleep. I'm tired myself, but I can't fall asleep, so I figured I'd check up on people here. I'm not lonely right now, so all's well. He's got all the Invader Zim episodes on DVD, so I figure I'll swipe those from him and use them to pass the time while my laptop's gettin' worked on... And I'll probably work on some games. I'm having a rough time with Brawl, so I might take a little break from that. Maybe work on Disgaea DS. *shrug*

I agree with Tobi. You should fap more.
Also, try kicking people in the nuts. Sure you may end up getting beat up in fights, but if sharing your pain with a randomer doesn't help, then Zero isn't a rapist. And we all know that Zero is THE rapist.

Invader Zim can cheer anyone up =D

Dr. Lord Ryu wrote:Invader Zim can cheer anyone up =D

Agreed.

ARMS.

LIKE.

NOODLESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

Shine wrote:

Dr. Lord Ryu wrote:Invader Zim can cheer anyone up =D

Agreed.

ARMS.

LIKE.

NOODLESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

I don't particularly enjoy Invader Zim.

Sagechild wrote:

Shine wrote:

Dr. Lord Ryu wrote:Invader Zim can cheer anyone up =D

Agreed.

ARMS.

LIKE.

NOODLESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

I don't particularly enjoy Invader Zim.

SHUN THE NON-BELIEVER!

SHUN!
SHUNNNN!

Charlie the Unicorn reference?

Shine wrote:

Sagechild wrote:

Shine wrote:

Dr. Lord Ryu wrote:Invader Zim can cheer anyone up =D

Agreed.

ARMS.

LIKE.

NOODLESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

I don't particularly enjoy Invader Zim.

SHUN THE NON-BELIEVER!

SHUN!
SHUNNNN!

S'cuse me for not liking gross out cartoons with bad colour-schemes and low quality production.

Except that Invader Zim lacked gross-out humor and had fucking awesome color schemes.

Also, a lot of good cartoons are low-budget. There are very, very few high-budget cartoons.

Eh, I agree with Tobi.
And yeah, Invader Zim was the shit. They should revive it on like, Adult Swim, make it have stuff Nick wouldn't let it have.
And if you're lonely: Stop bitching and go get some girls.

TRG wrote:Eh, I agree with Tobi.
And yeah, Invader Zim was the shit. They should revive it on like, Adult Swim, make it have stuff Nick wouldn't let it have.
And if you're lonely: Stop bitching and go get some girls.

<-- Fag.

Come to think of it, a vast majority of this site's consistent members are gay or bi.

Also, stfu, TRG. You're kind of an asshole.

Shine wrote:

TRG wrote:Eh, I agree with Tobi.
And yeah, Invader Zim was the shit. They should revive it on like, Adult Swim, make it have stuff Nick wouldn't let it have.
And if you're lonely: Stop bitching and go get some girls.

<-- Fag.

Come to think of it, a vast majority of this site's consistent members are gay or bi.

Also, stfu, TRG. You're kind of an asshole.

Wait, you're gay, or I'm gay?
Cause the arrow is pointing to yourself.
And I'm sorry if you think I'm a ass, I'm just telling you that whining won't get you much anywhere. I'm just saying, if you want something: Go get it.

TRG wrote:

Shine wrote:

TRG wrote:Eh, I agree with Tobi.
And yeah, Invader Zim was the shit. They should revive it on like, Adult Swim, make it have stuff Nick wouldn't let it have.
And if you're lonely: Stop bitching and go get some girls.

<-- Fag.

Come to think of it, a vast majority of this site's consistent members are gay or bi.

Also, stfu, TRG. You're kind of an asshole.

Wait, you're gay, or I'm gay?
Cause the arrow is pointing to yourself.
And I'm sorry if you think I'm a ass, I'm just telling you that whining won't get you much anywhere. I'm just saying, if you want something: Go get it.

Me.

And there are several ways to go about giving advice. Your method lacks compassion. I'd say it's a good idea to fix that.

Dr. Lord Ryu wrote:Except that Invader Zim lacked gross-out humor and had fucking awesome color schemes.

Also, a lot of good cartoons are low-budget. There are very, very few high-budget cartoons.

I didn't say low budget, silly woman.

I said "Low quality"

Also, the episodes I saw had things puking all over and stupid shit like that.

Shine wrote:

TRG wrote:

Shine wrote:

TRG wrote:Eh, I agree with Tobi.
And yeah, Invader Zim was the shit. They should revive it on like, Adult Swim, make it have stuff Nick wouldn't let it have.
And if you're lonely: Stop bitching and go get some girls.

<-- Fag.

Come to think of it, a vast majority of this site's consistent members are gay or bi.

Also, stfu, TRG. You're kind of an asshole.

Wait, you're gay, or I'm gay?
Cause the arrow is pointing to yourself.
And I'm sorry if you think I'm a ass, I'm just telling you that whining won't get you much anywhere. I'm just saying, if you want something: Go get it.

Me.

And there are several ways to go about giving advice. Your method lacks compassion. I'd say it's a good idea to fix that.

Well, I guess I do, but that wouldn't be the way my Grandfather would give advice, and he's had a large influence on me. But I sorta know how you feel, I just actually read it, before I just scanned it. I feel a little outcasted sometimes, I have a lotta people who are "sorta" friends, but really, not much actual friends, and it sucks. but, just try to keep on going in hopes that life will get better, and just try to enjoy what things you have, like that you have people on this site feeling a little sorry for you instead of insulting you or calling you emo or something. Just look at the good, not the bad, no matter how much one eclipses the other.

I don't feel compassion or empthy.

I say, eh, life sucks, but it's this, or death.

@TRG- There are 3 people on site who are not Gay or Bi.

1.Zero
2.Dunk
3.TRG

And before too long, it'll be down to 2 again.

@Shine- Some of the best advice comes in a not compassion filled way.

Let us be happy.

PS-Zack, i'm thinking about making you number one on the list. HOW IN THE FUCK CAN YOU NOT LOVE INVADER ZIM. IT'S DA' FUCK.

I also never was able to understand the allure in Invader Zim, but it's hard to agree with an American that uses "colour", so I'll just remain a neutral party this time.

Tobi wrote:I don't feel compassion or empthy.

I say, eh, life sucks, but it's this, or death.

@TRG- There are 3 people on site who are not Gay or Bi.

1.Zero
2.Dunk
3.TRG

And before too long, it'll be down to 2 again.

Why am I not on this list? I'm not gay or bi.

Zero wrote:I also never was able to understand the allure in Invader Zim, but it's hard to agree with an American that uses "colour", so I'll just remain a neutral party this time.

>_>

It's kinda common in the town I'm from to spell at least a few things in BE.

Sagechild wrote:

Zero wrote:I also never was able to understand the allure in Invader Zim, but it's hard to agree with an American that uses "colour", so I'll just remain a neutral party this time.

>_>

It's kinda common in the town I'm from to spell at least a few things in BE.

IT'S KIND OF COMMON WHERE I AM FROM TO BUILD A FUCKING METH LAB IN MY GARAGE, TOO BAD I'M A REBEL.