Apology

Okay, I don't know WHY I go crazy every time I lose, or something doesn't go my way. If I DID, I'd fix it.

I realize I piss off a lot of people, but you know what? I can't help it, so live with it. If I bitch or complain, just leave. Ignore me, give me space, I'll calm down. I promise.

Pokemon is just a game. I mean, listen to it being pronounced... It even SOUNDS ridiculously childish. Games are "fun." They're meant to be enjoyed, not to instill stress. I KNOW this. I'm NOT stupid, I just... I can't change the way I act. I won't take meds for this shit or see a professional or whatever because it's really not worth the time or money. They hand you some zombie pills, and send you on your way. Anti-depressants don't actually make you more cheerful or happy. They just null all your emotion entirely. It's not happiness, it's no better. It's just CONTROL. Yeah, you don't get pissed off or sad anymore, but you won't fucking smile either. You won't be giggling unless you're just SO damn doped up that you don't know what the fuck is going on around you.

I'm sorry that I piss some of you off, or give you a rough time when I really don't mean to. Like I said, if I could help it, I would, but it's just not that easy. It's like... Being starved for a week, and then having this big, juicy steak set down in front of you... And you're expected not to eat it. It's just you and the meat alone in a room, and you're expected to just pretend it isn't even there. I dunno, I don't make sense anymore.

Shine needs a "Shine's Tantrums" section to just bitch whenever he wants and vent. Might be good for some laughs.

All-in-all, I'm just sorry I'm so hard to deal with. I don't want to be a burden. I don't want to be that guy that people are disappointed to see everyday when he enters the chat or is seen online or something.

I'm just sorry...

Okay, I came up with an "explanation" for that weird metaphor up there...

"Being starved for a week (lacking in self-restraint due to conditions outside of your ability to control), and then having this big, juicy steak set down in front of you (experiencing a loss or realizing something you can't have)... And you're expected not to eat it (expected not to bitch about not getting what you want)."

I guess I wasn't just talkin' crazy shit afterall.

Also, I was serious about that "Shine's Tantrums" section.

Interesting metaphor :p.

Anyways, it's not a big deal =). Everyone on here has their quirks, whether they realize it or not >_>;. And hey, the first step to solving a problem is to realize you have it, right? ...Or something.

XD It's 3am so I'm not going to make much sense. But I'll go ahead and add a Rants forum, haha.

MY QUIRKS ARE THE BEST. AHAHAHAHAHA.

Your quirks are better identified as birth defects.

Of course.

I used to hit babys when i lost.

However, there are only so many babys in New York, and hitting the same one twice is dumb.

So, i had to stop doing it. God, i wish i loved in MEXICO. They breed fast.

. . .

wut

i c wat u did thar.

Ur doin' it wrong.

yOUR FAC IS UGLY AND IS MAKES SMALL CHILDREN CRY.