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I'm currently in Tucson, AZ, and my grandma is currently in a Hospice.
My grandmother's had liver cirrhosis for a while now, but its finally took its toll. She's now diagnosed with end-stage liver failure, and is not eligible for a transplant. She is going to die. When? We have no idea. The anticipation is crushing.
The worst part, however, is the water retention. They've drained her of most of the excess fluids (she came into the hospital completely flooded with ammonia), so she LOOKS plenty better; less swollen, but... The pressure of the fluids inside her skull caused some damage to her brain... She can hardly move or speak, totally incapable of saying anything coherent. I don't know if she even realizes who I am or where she is... Or her situation...
I saw her once in the Hospital, but now... I don't think I can visit her again. I don't want to remember her as she is now, and I doubt she'd wish for it, either. Some of my family is up there at the Hospice now, visiting her for the second time today... I don't know how to handle this.
It's horrible, knowing that a close relative is going to die... Especially when you don't know exactly when, and when their mind is so disoriented... It's really like... She's already gone...
My grandmother's had liver cirrhosis for a while now, but its finally took its toll. She's now diagnosed with end-stage liver failure, and is not eligible for a transplant. She is going to die. When? We have no idea. The anticipation is crushing.
The worst part, however, is the water retention. They've drained her of most of the excess fluids (she came into the hospital completely flooded with ammonia), so she LOOKS plenty better; less swollen, but... The pressure of the fluids inside her skull caused some damage to her brain... She can hardly move or speak, totally incapable of saying anything coherent. I don't know if she even realizes who I am or where she is... Or her situation...
I saw her once in the Hospital, but now... I don't think I can visit her again. I don't want to remember her as she is now, and I doubt she'd wish for it, either. Some of my family is up there at the Hospice now, visiting her for the second time today... I don't know how to handle this.
It's horrible, knowing that a close relative is going to die... Especially when you don't know exactly when, and when their mind is so disoriented... It's really like... She's already gone...
