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You know what really pisses me off?
No, I mean, do you know what gets me SEETHING? Absolutely LIVID?
Friend introduces me to a game. I pay MONEY to play this shit, and I suck. Okay, I ask 'em to help me get better.
You know me. You all know me. I'm easily discouraged, and I'm really competitive.
So, I'm playing this game, and I get ticked when people start FLAMING me because of my inability to play this stupid game well. I get LAUGHED at on all ends, and this is fucking discouraging. I go to the fuck that got me into the game and look for a little sympathy, and what do they do?
They laugh at me, too.
I looked to them for some ENCOURAGEMENT- ANY kind word to boost my morale, and they shit on me. They essentially ASSURE my future failures by causing me to realize that I have no potential, and will amount to nothing in the world of online gaming. I'm convinced that I'm simply SO PATHETIC, so without skill, that there's nothing for me in games.
When they laugh at me, they tell me I suck. When my "friend" laughs at me, they agree. What kind of friend is that? What kind of stupid git is gonna try to call themselves my FRIEND, and then laugh at me for needing HELP, for being NEW to a game from a genre I never enjoyed in the first place!
Are they fucking retarded? I think so, especially considering they, too, know my emotional downfalls.
Yes, I'm a god damn emo-kid, I know it. I overreact to shit. But don't they think, just maybe, considering that they KNOW I'm so drastic with myself, that maybe they should be a little more forgiving? A little more sympathetic? Just a LITTLE more careful about what they say? In my case, words hurt so much more than any form of physical pain, because I'm sensitive. I hate it, but I'm like a fucking exposed nerve- a light BREEZE will get me to writhe.
How am I supposed to rely on people like this? If my friends treat me like dirt, how am I supposed to rely on ANYONE? Who's shoulder can I lean on? It's like the only way I can survive is to somehow CALLOUS myself from the rest of the world, just cut off all ties with any sense of empathy.
I want to be a cold, heartless, unforgiving prick. I should stop caring at all, because everyone I get close to ends up just hurting me in the end.
Am I melodramatic? Yeah, but you know, it's just one more lump in a sea of shit. It just keeps piling on and on and on, and I don't have anyway to pull the plug and drain it out! I can't vent! I don't know why, but no matter how much I talk, or draw, or scream, or ANYTHING, I don't feel any better in the end! I have NO OUTLET.
I'm sore, I'm pissy, I'm depressed... I'm lonely...
He's gonna hate me if I ever unblock him... Wouldn't be the first time I did, but he just never learns...
P.S.
Everytime I entered a game he was in, he'd leave. I hardly even got any help.
No, I mean, do you know what gets me SEETHING? Absolutely LIVID?
Friend introduces me to a game. I pay MONEY to play this shit, and I suck. Okay, I ask 'em to help me get better.
You know me. You all know me. I'm easily discouraged, and I'm really competitive.
So, I'm playing this game, and I get ticked when people start FLAMING me because of my inability to play this stupid game well. I get LAUGHED at on all ends, and this is fucking discouraging. I go to the fuck that got me into the game and look for a little sympathy, and what do they do?
They laugh at me, too.
I looked to them for some ENCOURAGEMENT- ANY kind word to boost my morale, and they shit on me. They essentially ASSURE my future failures by causing me to realize that I have no potential, and will amount to nothing in the world of online gaming. I'm convinced that I'm simply SO PATHETIC, so without skill, that there's nothing for me in games.
When they laugh at me, they tell me I suck. When my "friend" laughs at me, they agree. What kind of friend is that? What kind of stupid git is gonna try to call themselves my FRIEND, and then laugh at me for needing HELP, for being NEW to a game from a genre I never enjoyed in the first place!
Are they fucking retarded? I think so, especially considering they, too, know my emotional downfalls.
Yes, I'm a god damn emo-kid, I know it. I overreact to shit. But don't they think, just maybe, considering that they KNOW I'm so drastic with myself, that maybe they should be a little more forgiving? A little more sympathetic? Just a LITTLE more careful about what they say? In my case, words hurt so much more than any form of physical pain, because I'm sensitive. I hate it, but I'm like a fucking exposed nerve- a light BREEZE will get me to writhe.
How am I supposed to rely on people like this? If my friends treat me like dirt, how am I supposed to rely on ANYONE? Who's shoulder can I lean on? It's like the only way I can survive is to somehow CALLOUS myself from the rest of the world, just cut off all ties with any sense of empathy.
I want to be a cold, heartless, unforgiving prick. I should stop caring at all, because everyone I get close to ends up just hurting me in the end.
Am I melodramatic? Yeah, but you know, it's just one more lump in a sea of shit. It just keeps piling on and on and on, and I don't have anyway to pull the plug and drain it out! I can't vent! I don't know why, but no matter how much I talk, or draw, or scream, or ANYTHING, I don't feel any better in the end! I have NO OUTLET.
I'm sore, I'm pissy, I'm depressed... I'm lonely...
He's gonna hate me if I ever unblock him... Wouldn't be the first time I did, but he just never learns...
P.S.
Everytime I entered a game he was in, he'd leave. I hardly even got any help.
